Tuesday, May 01, 2007
life's getting a tad too mudane for me. mundane as in, i don't look forward to tomorrows anymore. there were times when i used to look forward to a few hours later, and here i'm talking about looking forward to squash trainings; there are times when i looked forward to seconds later, when the bell goes and we get to go on having other lessons. these seem so natural but i think i need to learn to pick that up again.
i can't seem to remember the feeling of having to look forward to something anymore.
there's just so little going on in life and i tend to feel that i'd be better off nonexistent. i don't mean to antagonise, but i just don't think this is fair to me. i don't think this should happen to me. i don't think i deserve this shit.
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