Wednesday, February 28, 2007
certain scents and certain songs remind me about things that happened in the past, things that i've been through, things called memories.
even the cheapest scent that a poor student like me could afford, did bring flashback across my mind. i sprayed it on the other day during chinese new year, and all those mugging memories just came falshing across my mind. it was just like a movie rewinding back, bringing about nostalgia, making me want to relive those seemingly boring days of my jc life all over again.
those sundays spent in school, those late night bus rides with mugger clan, that crystal jade la mian xiao long bao dinner, and that time when the 6 of us just went right into NYDC, merely sharing one mudpie. i miss those phone calls from ping when we could always think of things to talk about. i miss hearing eugenia's sleepy voice over the phone, when she used to tell me that she just woke up and would be quite late to meet me at jurong point for a sunday subwaylunch date. i miss our venezia moments too, president. i miss invading PD block with shit, literally. yeah, let's admit it la, it's our favourite shitting toilet. and of course, shanru's phone calls perked me up during some of those dullest moments i could think of, to think that we've been through so much together; lousy canteen food at the boarding school, lousy grades for chinese lit and even the tiniest instant-noodle issues.
i miss munching on chunks of dragonfruit. i miss laughing at marypeh (i'm so sorry that's what you've left me with). i miss seeing people walking around in the canteen looking more and more like zombies as a levels drew near. i miss those little talks with my bunch of girls, when we found out how we all felt the same way just before the killer day when there were two papers of very different subjects on th e same day. it was how we broke down together that bonded us together i guess. i'm so glad i'll always ALWAYS have my bunch of girls to turn to, no matter how down i am, no matter how bad the situation is. those times when we helped each other out in terms of studies and mental support, those times when differences weren't really regarded after all, those times will be kept so, so dearly in my heart.
it's so true that we'll only realise the significance of certain things when we no longer own them anymore. my life wouldn't have been complete if the past two years weren't lived that way.
and i'm feeling it, really, because i'm so stuck at home. the feeling of loneliness is just so solid and so true, especially now that the modem's down.
i want to be able to swing my racket as hard as or even harder than i did before. i miss so many of you and you and you.
-jessie, 22nd feb 2007 at 01 23
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