Saturday, September 16, 2006
"staring at the carnage, praying that the sun would never rise;living another day in disguise;these feelings can't be right, lend me your courage to stand up and fight..."what will happen if suddenly, just suddenly, a bomb drops from the sky?
the whole singapore will be gone.
everyone here, everything.
my parents over at malaysia will still be around,
dead sad and sorrowful.
for that i will not be around,
and that my friends will not be around.
i dont know whether it was really a right decision, but since i'm already in it, there's no point fretting over it too much, although appropriate amount of whining might be essential.
that song is making me a little depressed now. no, no. it isn't your fault. i'm just letting my mind wander a little, leaving that pile of notes alone for a while.
you always complain that i dont think about my future and i dont plan. ALWAYS. yes, yes, when one grows up, one HAS to be able to manage well, one HAS to work hard and one HAS to think and look far FAR forward so that he/she will be assured a BRIGHT FUTURE.
i want to be good. really. but sometimes i just think that this is not the way i wanna be. i'm no mugger. i'm no hardworking good girl.
i only work for stuff that i have passion in.
yes i know this is really a tad emotional and this useless ranting ends me up nowhere because
i still have to face the truth and the truth is that jessie chua still has to study for the remaining three four papers for the preliminary examinations and the a level examinations.
i feel so destroyed.
Y8:23 PM
